Thursday, February 21, 2008

Este no es perfecto, pero son mis pensamientos de mi viaje al Mexico recentemente.

No puedo protegerles
por jp 17/2/08

No puedo protegerles,
De los monsteros,
O ruidos de la noche.
De los hombres malos
con sus palabras peligrosos.
No puedo protegerles
de las cosas del mundo,
Mientras estan dormiendo,
No puedo hacer nada
Sino que orar, criar, golpiar
al Dios por sus vidas.
sus inocencia.
No puedo protegerles
Pero mi Dios estan en cuartos
Estan en sus suenos
Peleando contra los demonios del pasado.
Estan escuchando cuando mis ninos estan sufriendo y cuando
le estranan a sus mamas.
Estan alla, siempre.
Cuando no estoy y cuando no puedo protegerles.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Update time!

So I started a new job just over a month ago. At first, I was a little apprehensive about moving...I mean, I had only been at my job for about ten months, so it seemed too soon to be looking, let alone changing so quickly. But I did it. And God has blessed the move tremendously.

I couldn't ask for better coworkers or perks (it's a health and wellness company so they reimburse for my gym membership to a certain amount, host free yoga classes for us weekly, are paying for outside work-related functions just to build team unity, etc). Things have only gotten better and better as I've moved up. It was certainly hard to leave behind the dream that I had striven for for so long, but in the end, you have to do what's best for you and your family, right?

I'm also finally getting myself back onto a schedule and focusing on me a little more. Sometimes I've felt like it was selfish to spend extra time away from home going to the gym when I could/should be spending it with my busy husband, or supporting more of the functions at church.

But you know what? None of it matters if I'm not taking care of myself. So I'm choosing to take care of myself. To eat better, exercise more often (5-6 days a week) and finally get on track with daily supplements and vitamins.

It's only been a week and a half, but already I'm feeling more energized, less hungry and just better about myself in general (plus, I'm 7 lbs down already). Turning over a new leaf is never easy, but in the end it's about a choice. I'm done with eating crap and filling my body with toxic stuff and artificial nonsense. I'm done with dealing with relationships that suck the life out of you and companies that don't care about your emotional or physical well being. I'm done with feeling tired, even after 7-8 hours of sleep a night. I'm done with watching TV before and after work. I'm done with being heavier than I should be.

I'm so done.